The journal of a complicated girl

Things to Improve on

• Feeling like I have no money.
• Having to go to work tomorrow.
  
• Not going to go to the gym today 
• Having to work more in order to afford my own place.
• Wanting to save more money - put more in my savings account.
  

Tasks already done

• Going back to school today.
  
• Planning on running at the park by Percel's house.
  
• Getting closer to finishing www.co-imprisonment.com.
  
• Having an interview at Bebe's at Town Center Square Mall Sunday at 3:30p.
  
• Working out for 30 minutes yesterday.
• Getting our place together soon (along with Mini: my puppy.)
• Networking more with people through facebook.
• Created a design template for my wordpress theme on my domain: www.poetic-imagery.net.

CNEI - Constant and Never Ending Improvement.

I don't remember the last time I woke up in such a good mood. Everything seems great today. I've just been working along a few projects that I have. I'm about to go to the gym after I finish downloading the Black Eyed Peas new cd. Has anyone heard it? It is the BOMB! and especially since I'm going to work out. Everyone says that the new cd reminds them of Daft Punk. I'll download that one to and check out the difference.

I'm bored at the moment waiting for the cd to download. I can't believe how many projects I am willing to put on my back this time. I just am really tired of sitting and doing anything, but keep complaining of the reasons why I should have it differently. Unless we take actions, things don't really change much.

My taste buds are coming back very slowly. I don't get it, why did they ever leave? I guess throwing up can do some bad things to your stomach. Screw it all up, along with your delicious taste buds. I can't even taste food anymore and do you know how sad that is? I have to literally make everything I'm eating 10 times as spicy. And that's not good either cuz that makes my belly hurt.

OH yeah another thing I'm doing with my time is now uploading all my artwork to www.candyv.deviantart.com. Soon you'll be able to view most of my artwork, along with ideas I'm coming up with, or projects that I have been working on. It's all coming along and my graphic design career is taking off. I don't really care what one person has to say about me because it is one person's opinion versus the opinions of all my friends and network that I happen to be very happy with. I don't need to network with a person who does not like me in the first place. I don't need to help anyone who does not fully believe in my abilities as a designer.

The END....

BELIEVE

I'm getting ready to go to school right now as I write this. I'm undressing and shit.. hahah wow. I have no idea why imeem just does not want to play any music and it's pissing me off lol oh well that's why I got Itunes as my backup. Lately I've been been accomplishing things and goals that I never thought were possible. I have finally created Our Incarcerated Loved Ones, you can view it HERE. I'm very proud. I actually can say that I've finished something that I have worked my ass off doing. I'm sure you can tell I'm very excited about what the future holds.

I believe that I'm meant for bringing a beautiful image and creating it, I believe that I'm made to make websites that inspire and create new ideas. Slowly things will go okay, just gotta learn how to be patient..that's all..and to me that's a very difficult task because I have never been one to be just patient. I am but. lol

Today is my last day of school and it means that I had to do my final and this is what I've created

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My title explains it all, for the past 2 days I've been a throwing up mess. I can't believe that I got food poisoning and I still don't know what. I've now had the poison fucked out of me as my boyfriend haha. Anyways. But I feel a lot better today. My chest and stomach still hurt but only when I  breath in real deep as I was throwing up a lot and I must be dehydrated. I gotta a lot to do within the next few days. I still have my list. great. another thing to add to it, is shopping for groceries. I have felt so sick that food didn't even sound appetizing to me but I'm back and food is more delish than ever. haha..

- Breakfast: Nutrigrain? Look into it..

Anyways, gotta go. I'm at work. See ya!

I'll try to make this as quick as I can since I'm trying to go to the gym and feel that I have soo much to write about. Just so many things have been happening that I need an outlet on where to transpire my thoughts into words. This would be it, except I'm not really liking vox because for the last 2 posts that I've tried to do at work. The computer crashes and it doesn't save anything leaving with an empty post.

 And for that mere reason, I have acquired MY OWN DOMAIN. Actually 2 domains, one for my dog sitting business, www.candysbestfriends.com and one for my graphic design business, www.poetic-imagery.net. It's taken 60 days to get my poetic imagery domain to be transferred from GoDaddy.com to 1and1. It's been an awful long waiting period, but now that it's finally done I feel that I can start working and showing off the work that I've been doing. Everyone needs to see how good I am with my graphic design skillets. Lol =P

It's been a good day, except this morning when this broad at work who has the same position as me decides to tell me off. That sort of upset me, but other than that, it's been great. I would write about the incident here but I don't know if anyone from work reads this and I don't need any names put out there up front. So for now, we'll just call her a broad.

Natalie (my friend from work) introduced me to one of the greatest things, LIKE EVER. An Ice Grande Breve Green Tea Latte!!

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If I would have known that it was SOOOO good, I would have gotten the VENTI. Damn, lol. Now I know what is great and still SORT of healthy up at Starbucks.

I'm trying to go to the gym and exercise because I have not done so in the past 2 days. I've just been so busy with a lot of projects, school, my boyfriend, working 6 days this week and dogsitting. Craziness! Sometimes I don't know how I pull it all off...Speaking of school, the class I'm currently taking is almost done. I am almost done with my Drawing I class and I'm so very proud. I have to get cracking on my final project which is done soon. I need ideas for the beginning of an art project, ANYONE?

Anyways, this is a sample of my homework that must be turned in Thursday. It's an entire composition done with nothing but pen & ink. Neat huh? I think I've always been pretty good using the pen as a drawing utensil. Everyone knows I always doodle and shit while I'm at work. I still have the other composition to do, but I should be done by then. I will get an A, I just know it. I try hard for these grades because I know the potential being school releases in me. I feel that going to school is my motivation to continue because it's like someone is pushing me to get the work done and Im doing it, duuudee..

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SO one of my websites, which I'm very proud is coming all together and should be done soon. This project is called Our Incarcerated Loved Ones, u can view the progress here: WWW.CO-IMPRISONMENT.COM I'm currently working on creating a theme with the lovely and grand, wordpress. It's been working out pretty great so we'll see, I just have to customize the styles and what not. My deadline is June 12 so I'll keep my fingers crossed and hope that my guardian angel shows up to help me get it done in time.

It's been an awesome week and I think June is just getting started... I have some BIIIIGGG News to reveal soon, but I will keep them to myself until the process is complete. That's it for now. TATA

I feel like I'm in this rut that I cant get out of. I'm trying so hard to move forward but it feels like there's always something hold me back. I'm tired of the job that I have yet I don't have the courage to look for another job because I feel I won't find anything that suffices how much I make at the moment. This economy is so bad, it really depresses me. I feel like I'm listening to people all day, bitch to me about their problems. And I mean that's all fine and dandy, but it's not like I get paid to do that and it's mentally exhausting. I can be doing so many more better things for myself.

My to-do list within these 2 days are:

1) Finish my homework for Art Class (gotta draw a self-portrait by Thursday)
2) Call Judy and find out
3) Call Sherwyn and ask what that whole attendance email was for and also about registration for classes.
4) Put a sweater in my locker for work.
5) Percel's mom's website
     a) Finish typing out book and convert to PDF file
     b) Finish content for all the subpages
     c) Links to organization
6) Bills
7) Add more music to my ipod.
8) Talk to Diana (Percel's mom) to discuss e-book and paypal. Maybe cheaper to do it ourselves.

The subject of this basically describes my morning. lol lol Keep in mind my morning starts at 6am when I come in to work. Craziness. I walk into work and all of a sudden I'm sitting in the supervisor's chair ;) This really motivates me. Makes me want to be better and maybe even a supervisor.

Gotta keep smiling :) It makes the world go round. As long as you make other people smile, I think you're bound to get that smile back...

So I woke up today feeling good and ready for anything that approaches my way. I almost feel rejuvenated, but at the same time I have so many darn things on my mind. I just keep thinking and thinking about stuff I have to do or things I want to try to do (lol) and buy, especially buy. I recently have purchased the best skin care regimen available for my type of skin. I now only use a few products that I know will work.

It's just weird cuz now it's summer time and my face gets really fucking oily, that's the only bad thing I can think of, but other than that I'm perfectly fine with my skin care. I'm thinking of buying their other moisturizer though, it's a gel type moisturizer and I've been reading online and it says that it's made for people with oilier skin, meaning me. The only thing I really don't dig about Laneige is how much their products are, but they are sooo freaking worth it. Another thing I really really want to try, is to go to a Japanese store and maybe try their oil remover. The other thing I want from Laneige is their pore mask, I think it would definitely benefit from its use. so far I've never seen my face clear up in such a little amount of time and it's great. I really do love having enough confidence to fill a room with  my radiating sunshine to fill a room with my radiating sunshine but I don't feel like this when I have all the icky stuff on my face. I've dealt mainly with my acne since I was around 20. I mean it's progressed but I havent had clear skin for a year and that hurts my soul. Finally my skin is getting better. I truly want to be able to NOT wear make up.

I'm sitting at the computer on my last break, bored.....

But I gotta go now cuz it's almost over.  15 minutes of break time, stinks.

My health seems to be improving, thank God. I can't believe it's Saturday today, it doesn't seem much like a weekend to me, I don't know why. I'm sitting in the breakroom thinking about all the things that are going on in my life at the moment. I want to go to the gym, but I don't think that I have the energy or power to go. I'll try to go though just for the hell of it. I've also started using a new skincare line called Laneige. I freaking looooovee it, it's soo good for my skin and I noticed it working after the first day. I'm going to keep using it for a month and see how it works.

I bought the emulsion and the pore spot solution and I was in heaven. I had bought me the Peter Thomas Roth Salycic + Glycolic acid earlier and I really do love it because it works, but it dries out my skin way too much so I went back to The Amore (the only store that sells Laneige in Las Vegas) and bought the pore refining cleaner. I am in total love, this stuff is heaven. But yeah, it's pricey. I guess you get what you pay for :) but I'll keep using this since it's the only stuff that seems to keep my acne under control. Gaww, it sucks that after I turned 21 I started breaking out like crazy. I'll post pictures later, I just happen to be at work at the moment =P

I'm still at working hoping to get out of here by at least 2pm. I usually get out around 2:30pm, but usually Sundays are sooooo slow. Today after work I get to go see the home that I'll be sharing with my man. It's on Warm Springs and Fort Apache, I can't wait to see what it looks like. He said that I'm really going to like it, it even has a pretty balcony for the both of us. I am so proud of this man, at 22 years old and he's buying a home. I am in heaven with him.

Speaking of which, tomorrow is our 6 month anniversary and I bought him something awesome, I won't write what it is until tomorrow just in case he reads this. I really hope he likes it, I was going to do all this romantic biz but in the end, really couldn't do it, due to our crappy schedules. I work until 4:30p that day and then he doesn't get out usually until 5pm and has school from 7p-9p. So that really sucks. Aside from that, I think we're going to have a good one.

Anyways, I'll write more later along with pictures. I also have to update all my pictures on here, so I'll do that when I'm home. I'll probably be home around 6pm, if even...

See ya!!!